Tuesday, December 1, 2015

Understanding...


I woke up this morning in a cloud of confusion. As I lay in bed, I talked to God about all thing things I just don’t understand. Like cancer, or children dying from catastrophic diseases, or destroyed lives, and even my inability to be the better person I want to be. Heavy stuff. I told God I knew that I don’t have to understand, but I want to understand, and that I knew He was in control and surely there’s a greater plan than the pain that I see.

I arrived at work earlier than normal. I normally sit a few minutes in my car before I start my day, praying and reading a few Bible verses.

This morning, as I began to open my Bible, I just said, “Help.” I really needed Him to touch my spirit. I randomly opened my Bible and landed on Psalm 119. I began to read the lines I had highlighted and underlined:

Verses 27 and 28
Make me understand the way of Your precepts;
So shall I meditate on Your wonderful works.
My soul melts from heaviness;
Strengthen me according to Your word.


Verse 34Give me understanding, and I shall keep Your law;
Indeed, I shall observe it with my whole heart.


Then Proverbs 2 came immediately to my mind, which reads in part:
…Lift up your voice for understanding,
Seek her as silver, search for her as for hidden treasures;
Then you will understand the fear of the Lord,
And find the knowledge of God.
For the Lord gives wisdom;
From His mouth come knowledge and understanding;
He stores up sound wisdom for the upright;
He is a shield to those who walk uprightly;
He guards the paths of justice,
And preserves the way of His saints.
Then you will understand righteousness and justice,
Equity and every good path.


I know what I must do. 
 Seek Him first. 
 In everything. 
 Always.

7 comments:

  1. Sometimes, I think, us as humans not understanding the hows and whys is God's way of protecting us. Knowing why this and why that isn't relevant to ones salvation. Stressful as it may be at times. I've heard as most have, "Why does God allow this to happen?". He lets nature, so to speak run it's course. Life happens,... it's how we deal with it that matters. Just my feeble thoughts,...

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    1. Knowing may give us too much responsibility...responsibility that we could probably never handle on this earth.

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  2. It is difficult to comprehend especially when we see so much suffering in the world and wonder why God allows it. A pastor here recently did a sermon about it. Basically unfortunately we live in a fallen world and some of the stuff is just the "natural" progression of sin and evil that got caused by sin. But you are right; we must always seek God in everything and always indeed; and pray for wisdom; he says if we ask for it, he will give it to us.

    betty

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    1. My mom says that, too. I think there would be a lot less of evil in our country if there were God fearing people who lived godly lives, elected Godly leaders, loved our neighbors...etc.

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  3. I was reading the New Living Translation this summer and came across a version of a verse in Philippians that we all know well, but the NLT gave it a fresh meaning for me. I've been going back to it regularly and rereading it, praying it, for months now.

    This post reminded me of it:

    From Philippians 1: 9-11. I pray that your love will overflow more and more, and that you will keep on growing in knowledge and understanding. For I want you to understand what really matters, so that you may live pure and blameless lives until the day of Christ’s return. May you always be filled with the fruit of your salvation—the righteous character produced in your life by Jesus Christ—for this will bring much glory and praise to God.

    ...so that we know what really matters...

    Working on that. :}

    Deb

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    1. I guess I'll be working on that until the days I die. A change in circumstances can bring a change in perspective of what's important. I pray that I am led to that change instead of driven to it. Change is not easy for a self-centered chick who had basically always had life easy in comparison to the greater percentage of folks.

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