Monday, June 2, 2014

About That Lack of Self-Control

Sometimes I forget and need a little reminding.   Today is one of those times.  This is going to be a long post, I can feel it already.  Words…lots of words.  Maybe some pretty graphics will help.

I haven’t written much about weight loss in this new blog because…well…there’s nothing new to say. Most of the weight I had lost has found its way back to my frame, and my frame is protesting loudly!  I don’t remember feeling this weighted down the last time I was this size (pun kinda intended), but my knees and back are quite mad at me.   Ninety pounds is a big deal to lose and regain.

There’s no need to whine about how I wish I hadn’t picked up my old habits…I did.   There’s no need to cry over thinking I could eat a little sugar and get by with it…I couldn’t.    I won’t even go into detail about how being overweight strips you of your ability to like yourself,  have fun without being conscious of the fact that you look like a beached whale or, most importantly, how it will rob you of any confidence to do God’s will...it does.


This has been a long, hard battle.  I thought it was behind me last year, but it reached up from the grave and slapped me down.   I have been disgruntled, discouraged and walking around in the pit.   My first thought when thinking of writing about this part of my life was to tell you about my “epiphany” involving self-control, and how after I had the realization that I needed to harvest the God given fruit of temperance, I had a mental shutdown and decided that I just can’t do this.

But then, Dudley @ Kurios Reflections,  left a comment on a post of mine (Gnats and the Most High God) Rereading this post reminded me that God definitely hears my prayers, and that He cares for my plight.   Most importantly, He will help me and not leave me defenseless. 
So…I have some self-control to learn.  If God tells me to get away from sugar, I should obey.   Self-control is important because the whole world is out of control, and as a Christian, I should be walking in the blood bought victory that is readily available to me.  I do not have to live in a life that is out of sync with what the Word of God says I can have:  Freedom.   And as we know, whom the Son sets free is free, indeed.

Don’t think you’ve heard the last of this!   


7 comments:

  1. Have you considered The Daniel Plan? Check out www.danielplan.org and look at the book on Amazon.

    In March I cut out all sugar & gluten and it has incredibly changed my life. However, I couldn't have done it without this book. Let me know if you are interested and if I can help you in any way.

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    1. Thank you! I have looked at this plan before. Getting healthy is a main goal, for sure! I am definitely giving up the sugar...not sure how much I want to adhere into another set of rules at this point. Right now, I am just concentrating on getting my head back into some "God space" instead of this "me space."

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  2. Not that long of a post--I was ready for twice as many words. :)

    To the first half of the post--I nodded all the way thru it. You know that I know what you're saying.

    And then when you wrote about your decision to srite, then the inability to do so. Hah. I can't tell you how many times that's happened to me this year. That's why my blog has so few posts on it!

    But then my head went from nodding to shaking, "No." at the self-control part. I am have come to the sad realization that I'm just not there. My crop of Fruit of the Spirit crop is too meager. And what I have, I am unable to adequately harvest. And what I DO harvest, I am unable to consume.

    You see, God is the farmer but my soil has been resistant--full of self and stubbornness. When I try to exercise my SELF-control...it is ALL self and quickly fails.

    I have recently come to the conclusion that all I can do is surrender to God and depend on Him to enable me to obey. Obedience and surrender. And (let me admit this) frantic, frantic prayer.

    I'm trusting that the real Holy Ghost form of self-control will grow in that humble soil, fetilized with God's grace.

    Haha. Yeah. I've had this on my mind for a while. :}

    Deb

    Oh. It's Monday!

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    1. We are definitely on the same page. I agree wholeheartedly with what you've said...it will take Him for me to learn what I need to learn about self-control, obedience, surrender...etc. If that wasn't the case, I would have succeeded a long time ago on my own merit. I think one reason I fell this time was that I had yet another lesson to learn. More than one lesson. Like I said...this ain't the last thing I have to say on this. We are going to win because of who we are in Him.

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  3. I like how you said self control is so important because the world is out of control; truly it is in so many different ways. Since self control is a characteristic of God, he will definitely give you self control as you ask for it. I hope you share lots of thoughts about it as you journey ahead.

    betty

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  4. It's a lifelong battle for me, as well. I lost 70 pounds in my early 30s, slowly gained about 20 of it back, then lost that 20 a few months ago. I'm now trying to keep that off. Weight Watchers was a huge help for me, but now I just count calories. I use Lose It...an app on my phone. I also tried one of those fitness bands, which made me walk more each day...that had an app that interacted with it. I only stay on my treadmill because I play SongPop while I'm on there. 32 matches keeps me walking for 50 minutes...I'm a little obsessed with SongPop. So basically, for me, it's all about the apps!

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