Sometimes I forget and need a little reminding. Today is one of those times. This is going to be a long post, I can feel it already. Words…lots of words. Maybe some pretty graphics will help.
I haven’t written much about weight loss in this new blog because…well…there’s nothing new to say. Most of the weight I had lost has found its way back to my frame, and my frame is protesting loudly! I don’t remember feeling this weighted down the last time I was this size (pun kinda intended), but my knees and back are quite mad at me. Ninety pounds is a big deal to lose and regain.
There’s no need to whine about how I wish I hadn’t picked up my old habits…I did. There’s no need to cry over thinking I could eat a little sugar and get by with it…I couldn’t. I won’t even go into detail about how being overweight strips you of your ability to like yourself, have fun without being conscious of the fact that you look like a beached whale or, most importantly, how it will rob you of any confidence to do God’s will...it does.
This has been a long, hard battle. I thought it was behind me last year, but it reached up from the grave and slapped me down. I have been disgruntled, discouraged and walking around in the pit. My first thought when thinking of writing about this part of my life was to tell you about my “epiphany” involving self-control, and how after I had the realization that I needed to harvest the God given fruit of temperance, I had a mental shutdown and decided that I just can’t do this.
But then, Dudley @ Kurios Reflections, left a comment on a post of mine (Gnats and the Most High God) Rereading this post reminded me that God definitely hears my prayers, and that He cares for my plight. Most importantly, He will help me and not leave me defenseless.
So…I have some self-control to learn. If God tells me to get away from sugar, I should obey. Self-control is important because the whole world is out of control, and as a Christian, I should be walking in the blood bought victory that is readily available to me. I do not have to live in a life that is out of sync with what the Word of God says I can have: Freedom. And as we know, whom the Son sets free is free, indeed.
Don’t think you’ve heard the last of this!